Chapter 22

We were in the car, in front of the front door of the hospital.
"Okay, you go ahead. I'll park the car" His face was frozen. "Frank?"
"Yeah?" He suddenly turn to me like he had just woken up.
"Go ahead, I have to park the car."
"Okay." He didn't move.
I wait for a couple of seconds, but he remained still.
"FRANK!"
"I can't do it," His voice was weak
I sighed. "Yes you can. Everything is going to be okay." I stroked his face.
He looked at me. He looked like a scared puppy.

"Don't make me go," I held him. "How do you know everything is going to be okay?!"
I faced him and pressed my forehead against his, taking his face in my hands.

"Because God can be that evil," I stroked his cheek. "He made us apart once. He can't separate us again" I kissed his forehead. "It's our time."
"You're going to go out of this hospital like new. We're going to record the album and then on tour, we're going to have sex on Mikey's bunk." He let a laugh out between his tears. "And it's going to be you and me."
"Always?" He asked, looking at me.
"Forever babe." I kissed his forehead. "Now go, okay?"

He just nodded. He cleaned the tears and left the car. I looked at him when he got into the hospital. I felt something strange in my stomach, like a bad feeling, but I decided to ignore it.
I parked the car and went inside. When I entered, his mum and dad were already there. Mikey, Alicia, and Brian were there too. Ray and Bob had gone for coffee, according to Mikey.They told me that he was already taken to pre OR.
"What?""You know, last tests and anaesthesia thing.""I need to talk to him before the surgery.""You already talked to him, all night." His mum gave me glare, I just nodded. She and his dad went to the cafeteria. She's not going to let it go, is she?"What?" Brian looked confused."Oh c'mon!" Mikey yelled. "It's obvious, man."He looked even more confused.I just smirk. "Last year, we've been fucking all over and you didn't notice.""What?""You're truly stupid, man."Alicia smirked. "And how are things with Dr. Grumpy?""We're so over!""Why?" Mikey asked."She's crazy,. She wants to go to Africa with that dickhead""Don't give me that. She asked you and you left for Australia for almost a moth" I said to him."She's not going to wait for you that long," Alicia told him."Ejem"
We all turned around to see a very embarrassed Dr. Emma.
"Hi," Mikey, Alicia and I said in unison.
"Hey guys."
Brian just looked to the floor."He's going to enter to surgery in an hour.""Can I see him?" I asked her."I don't think so," She smiled sadly at me. "Well, I have to .." she tried to leave."So are you going to Africa?" Alicia said."I..." She didn't know what to say.
Brian looked at her finally. Their eyes locked. "I guess so.""That's a shame," Alicia said."Yes," She looked at Brian again. "A shame." She held her clipboard. "I have to go."
She just turned away and left.Alicia punch Brian in the head."What?""You have to tell her." Alicia looked at him serious, She really thought that she was some kind of cupid."Tell her what? She deserves him.""Is that what you are doing?" She punched him again. "You think he is better than you?""Me and her, it's great, but it doesn't belong. She and the doctor, they make sense.""Yes, but have you tell her…" We all looked at Alicia, confused. "That you love her" She explained.
"I…"
"You do? You love her?" Mikey asked him."I--.It's not your fucking problem." He just left."He loves her!" Alicia smiled at us. Mikey just put his arm around her waist. Brian POV I separated from Alicia, Mikes and Gerard, they were pissing me off about Emma. Damn, I missed her. I did love her. But she deserve something more. The doctor will make her happy. I sat on a couch on the second floor. I just closed my eyes. I felt someone sitting next to me.
"Resting?" I opened my eyes immediately. I'd recognize that voice anywhere."Uhm..yes" She was so beautiful. Without her glasses, her black eyes shined like the stars.She looked at me. "I just want to …" She smiled sadly. "I just want to say goodbye and wish you good luck."She was saying goodbye of me, she was leaving to Africa. She would never come back."So are you serious about Africa, saving kids from starvation?""Yeah, kids with AIDS." AIDS?"That's too dangerous.""I guess I want a little emotion.""Are you sure? Kenya is so unstable.""I'll take care of myself.""But, I mean, so many civil wars and diseases.""I know," Se was calm. Her surgery clothes fit her so well and her dark hair fell over her shoulders."Take care, okay?" I took her hand without a thought, She reacted at this, but didn't move away. "Just be careful"
"Why?"
"WHY? Because!"
"Why I should be careful?" She moved her hand away. "What difference does it make whether I'm alive or dead?""Don't say that!""You didn't fight Brian. You don't care about me."
"You're better off with him. Look at us, we're already fighting" She stood and started to walk away. "Emma!""You stupid …" She turned to face me. "You don't realize!""It's not that I don't love you, it's what is best for you.""Who are you to know what is best for me?!" She screamed at me. "This is what we do. We fight!" She moved her arms and pointed at us. "You exasperated me and I drive you crazy. I'm stubborn and you are an idiot." I couldn't help but laugh. She came closer. "If you loved me, you'll fight for me" She pointed at me, pressing her finger against my chest. "Now," She cleaned the tears, "I have to help in a surgery that happens to be your friend's brain."
She left and let me there. I just watched her walk away, away from me, for good. I kicked myself inside.
"Stay!""What?""I said stay… " I went to where she was."Why should I?""Stay with me ….I love you." She just froze."I'm so stupid." I took her chin with my hand and lift her head."Yes you are." She grabbed my face and kissed me. "I love you too."
GERARD POV We were waiting four fucking hours. Waiting. Praying . Waiting. The tick tock of the clock in that small waiting room was killing me. My hands were sweating since the last hours. I had drunk too much coffee. Frank. That was the only thing in my mind. Frank, stay with me. All this time, since that day in the bus when I broke his heart, since the moment I lost him. My soul has been incomplete. For him, I got lost in a dark room. When I found myself again, I wanted to show him the light in me again. Only with his friendship I was happy. I just needed to see his eyes, or listen him laugh to feel fine.
Now we were back again, in the right way, only the two of us, no complication. We were back again in a mature way. I was ready to be with him forever. I wanted him to be the last man I kissed. I wanted him to be the only man I was going to sleep with. I wanted to scream his name during sex and hold him until we fell sleep. A lifetime with him.
One more minute. And nothing from the OR.
Frank, Stay with me.You re the one I love, the one I need.Frankie, my true love.
"Gerard?"
Mikey woke me up from my thoughts."Yeap?"" Are you okay?""Yes.." I sighed.. "It's just something I feel in my chest like a pressure, or something strange,""It's nothing." He tried to hide his concern. "He's going to be okay.""Yeah" I tried to sound convinced.
Suddenly, the door of the OR got opened. D.r Robert, the neurologist that made the operation, walked in our direction