Chapter 19

I was standing at his door; I knocked for the third time.
“Gerard. I know you’re there. Open up!”
I heard footsteps coming to the door.
“Open up” I claimed again.
He opened the door slowly.
“What?”
“Aren’t you going to let me in??” I tried to look inside his apartment.
He just stood there
“Or you have someone inside?”
“My god” He tried to close the door.
“Okay sorry” I pushed the door. “Please…”
He just signed and let me in. At the moment I enter, He put himself at a prudent distance for me.
“Okay” I said looking at him. I was decided to do this, if something happen the next day, He had to know…
“What do you want?” He was trying to act cold and distance.
“I’m not confuse”
He looked at me surprise. He had his arms crossed upon his chest.
“I’ve been feeling things again Gerard. And is not because of the surgery, or because I could actually die tomorrow or I’m trying to have sex or used you.
“I’ll never think that.”
I looked at the floor.
“Frank, I don’t want to go back to that. All the pain…” I saw panic in his face, He was scared.
“But It won’t be painful” I tried to sound convincing “Now things are different” I took a step close to him. And he took one back. “Gerard… What do you feel for me?”
“You’re my best friend” He scratched his nose.
“Bullshit”
“Frank…”
“No, you listen, These time, these months with you, it’s been great, you know why?”
He had teary eyes, He looked away from my eyes.
“Because I had fallen in love of you all over again. Of you smiles, of your genius mind, of your tender face, of everything” I felt a rush of emotion going through my body. “I love you! Fuck.”
He was known crying; I came closer and he didn’t go back.
“It took us a long way, but we made it”
“Frank…. Is not right”
“Why?” I whispered.
“I’ll fuck it off again. The scar will never disappear. You will always remember what I did”
“We’ll live with that. Is already in the past. We closed that book, remember?”
I caressed his face. He closed his yes and let the tears came down
“Say you love me too”
He didn’t open his eyes as I keep caressing his check.
“I..”
I came even closer I could feel his heavy breath.
“Say it”
“I…..” He was trembling
“I love you” He opened his eyes “ Of course I lo…”
Before He ended I took his lips in mine.