CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX

Still Gerard POV

I was in a taxi on the way to my place. I thought back, to that day in London . Mikey had convinced me to talk to Frank, tell him the truth about why I left him, to tell him the real reason. I went to Jamie's room, I knew they were drinking in there. Jamie had let borrow me a Cd, so I decided to give it back, use it as an excuse to see Frank and try to talk to him.
I entered the room after a knock on the door

“Hey, Jamie, Here is the disk you lent me--”
I saw Jamie making-out with a guy. I froze when I realized it was Frank.
“Oh, sorry” I looked down.
“It’s okay, Gerard” Said Jamie to me.
“Sorry I …” I scratched my head and took a step back. I looked directly into Frank's eyes, 'How could you?', was what my look said.
He looked down, ashamed. Jamie approached to me and I gave him the disk.
“Sorry” Was the last thing I said. I left the room and ran to mine. When I got there I started to cry. I had lost him, completely. He was fucking Jamie.
“Babe, what’s wrong?” It was Lind-z , I couldn’t stand it, see her there, she was the reason.
“Nothing” I left the room. I heard her call me, but I needed some air. Some space.
I went to the centre of the town. Thinking about Frank, how I missed him. I missed everything about him, his smiles, his look, the smell of his hair after a shower, the whispers in the night, the words of love after we had sex.

When I woke up from my memories, I realized that I was home. In New Jersey . I ask to the taxi to leave me in a Starbucks. I stepped out of the car only to smell the scent of the coffee, making remember Frank one more time. I remember how he acted when we went to Starbucks, he jumped like a kid, and grinned. I let a tear leave my eye.
Why I was such a coward?
I had to tell him the truth, it was eating me alive.