CHAPTER ONE

We’ve been doing this for a long time, it never wasn’t a big deal, touching each others on stage. The kids love it, they scream their heads out when they see me licking his face or rubbing my head between his legs. It was just an act, isn’t? Nothing more .

But tonight, there was something else, something totally unexpected happened, he kissed me, Gerard fucking Way kissed me, on stage, in from of thousands of people!!!. He caught me with my guard down; I was playing at the centre of the stage when he aproached me and kiss me, wrapping me with his arms.

I don’t know why but I kissed him back. I put my arms around his waist. When we broke apart I didn.t even realise what was just happened, I just knew that I had to play the next song.

The rest of the show I felt my head spinning, it was so weird, I mean he is my friend, my bandmate, the smartest person I know, the most talented, the sweetest, the most beautiful…okay maybe He is more than a friend, but do I have a sexual attraction for him??? That’s not possible…..But that kiss, was fucking amazing!
Now, there is a little tiny detail, even if I like Gerard, we both had girlfriends, and I love Jamia, even trough the last few moths things hasn’t been going that great; I still loved her….and Gee is with Lynd-Z, not my favourite person in the world, but it was his choice and I’ve always respect the choice he made.
The idea remained in my head for the rest of the night. Mikey and I went to sign some autographs and then reunited with the others in the bus. Inside, Bob and Brian were playing Nintendo, Mikey wentto call Alicia into his bunk, and Ray was in the back listening something from his laptop.

Gerard was sitting on the couch, there was something strange about him, He was reading a comic book, but his eyes where anywhere but in the pages. I went to the coffee maker where Ray was. “Something is wrong with Gerard, he’s been in the Twilight Zone for about an hour” He says to me in a worried tone.

“Maybe he’s just thinking” trying to act like I didn’t care, “I’ll talk to him later” I say scratching my head

“Well, I….oh shit!, there is no coffee left” Said Ray and I laughed, Mikey came up like a storm from his bunk. “What!!!?” in a painful tone. I laugh even harder, even Gerard is smiling. Ray looked at him and moved his head.

“Ok, lets go, there is a Starbuck a few blocks from here”. Mikey’s face is bright at this word “Yeah Coffee!”.

“Ok let’s go coffee junkie, are you guys coming?” Said Ray.

” I’ll go”, said Bob, Brian also stand up and go towards the bus door.

“I think I’ll stay” I said thinking that this would be an opportunity of had a conversation with Gerard.

“Gerard?” Ask Toro, he only shaked his head and kept looking at his comic book. They left.
After a couple of minutes I sat next to him. He remainned still, I started to look at him, God he’s gorgeous, he still dsome make up in his face and is all sweaty, but that made mewant him even more, STOP IT!

I shake my head trying to pull away my thoughts. Finally I ask “Hey man Are you ok? You seem a little distracted.” He looks at me with those hazel and deeps eyes.

“Just tired, that’s all” and give me a little smile. I smile him back.

“I’m sorry about tonight” He suddenly said with a strange look. “About what?” I tried to put an innocent face.

“You know the kiss” He is looking down know.

“Don’t worry about it, you just got me unprepared” There is an awkward silence, we never have these kind of situations, is so strange. “They went wild isn’t?” I said trying to break the ice. “Yeah” he finally said, now he’s looking at me with a mischievous look. “So Frankie….how was it?” His smirk was even wider now. I was a little surprised by this attitude but decided to continue the game.

”I had better”, putting my arms behind my head and laying back. We both exploted in a laughs. “You’re a bad kisser, I don’t know how Lind-z stands you!” I laughed and felt a punch of a magazine in my face, Gerard was punching me with the comic book. “Hey..auuu no! stop.” Then He was on top of me, tickling me. He caught my wrists and put them on the top of my head, I’m submitted by him and the fact that he’s bigger than me doesn’t help.

“Say I’m a good kisser”…..I giggled hysterical,

“Okay okay”

“Say it!”.

“You’re a good kisser”.

“That’s better, Frankie” I giggle again

“Ok let me go now” He release my hands but still was on the top of me, I kept giggling, “But You need more practice with your tongue!!!!” I though that he was going to tickling me again but instead, he looked at me in the eyes and said with a really sexy voice.

“So maybe I should improve my technique” There was something in his eyes, something new, desire, lust, for me? Does Gerard want me??

“Maybe you should practice more”. I said without laugh, looking also into his eyes, but now he is looking at my lips. Our faces inches apart, he smiled again and take off the hair from my face, my brain was screaming for me to pull him off, but I can’t; I didn´t want to. I wanted him on the top of me, I wanted his lips on top of my lips, I wanted to feel the dance of his tongue in side my mouth, GOD I wanted him!
Finally he stood up, looking confused, like he didn’t know what the hell he was doing, he give me an embarrassing look, and star walking trough the door, I also got up my feet, I’m stood looking at him, he opens the door, and stay there looking outside, deciding what to do. I turn away going to my bunk with the desire of him to kiss me again in my head and body. Then I heard it, is the sound of a door closing, but then another unexpected sound, steps that come closer to me, fast. The next thing I know, I’m being push into the bus wall and Gerard have furiously press his lips against mines.