CHAPTER FIFTEEN

The next few weeks were awkward. We avoided seeing each other, and if the guys asked if everything was okay between us, we just said, yes, everything was fine.
The wait was consuming me; my only relief was that Gerard was away from Lind-Z too, he was taking all the space he needed. That was a good sign, I guessed.
Project Revolution was almost over. I missed being close to Gerard so much that it hurt.
As Gerard and I grew further apart day by day, Jamie and I became closer. We practically spent everyday together. I liked his company, we talked about how he had lived alone all those years in London and I also told him how I started in music. We ate lunch and drank coffee together almost everyday. We both loved lattes.
One night, we went to Starbucks, arguing about who was the best comic book superhero, I thought it was Batman, he though Superman.
“C’mon, Superman’s more sexy!” He said as we left.
“It’s not about sexiness, He doesn’t have a motive!”
“Of course, he wants to do good things!”
“That’s stupid, Batman has a motive, he wants revenge, beat the shit out of all the criminals because his parents are dead, and the villains are so much cool that fucking Lex Luthor!” I was being serious about the subject.
“Okay, okay, you win...” He said with a grin.
We went to his car. I was putting the belt set, when he started to laugh.
“What?”
“But Superman looks more gay.”
We both laughed, I was enjoying my time, when I was with him the whole Gerard thing hurt a little less.
“Thanks for everything, I couldn’t survive the last few weeks without you.” I truly believed that.
“Hey,” He pulled my bangs out of my face, “You can trust me, okay? I’ll always be there for you.” We both smiled at each other.
“Thanks.”
“And”… he started to doubt.
“What?” I had a puzzled face.
“If Gerard doesn’t want you...” He bit his lower lip.
“Please don’t even make me think about that.” I said shaking my head.
“I’ll be here.” He gave me a sexy smile. He was very sexy. I knew from Mikey that he had gotten lots of offers from other guys, wanting to date or have sex with him, but he always turned them down.
“Ah?” I was more confused now.
“You know, I’ll be... available.” He said turning a little red.
“Oh!” Suddenly I realized what he was trying to say to me.
I went red; the fact that a sexy and cute guy like me, could fix his eye on me, felt good for a moment. Someone had a crush on me.
He leaned in for a kiss, but my mind was screaming Stop Iero. No. No. No; but I didn’t do anything, I just stood there.
The kiss was brief and sweet, his lips tasted different, different from Gerard. When we broke apart he was smiling.
“I wanted to do that since I saw you at the airport”
“Really?” I raised an eyebrow
“Of course.”
“Why?”
“Why?!?!He asked why? You’re sexy, you’re smart, you’re funny, you have a purpose in life, and you don’t give a shit about what other people think. You like to help people, and you’re a good friend. You are a very special person Frank Iero. Very special."
“Whoa. Thanks” I scratched my head, I was embarrassed. I felt sorry that I didn't love him back.
“Jamie, I… I ..”
“I know. You and Gerard, but I had to try it.” He gave me a quick kiss.
“I’m sorry, you’re a great guy”. I said. I truly believed that, but I was in love with Gerard.
“Fuck.” He suddenly said. Jamie was looking to other side, across the street. I turned to see what he was looking at.
Shit.
It was Gerard; he just stood there, His face cold, not even angry. He just turned around and left. I assumed he had seen the kiss. Damn.
I tried to go after him, but Jamie stopped me.
“Don’t go after him.”
“Now he’s going to choose her!” I said desperately.
“Sorry.” He said in a sad tone.
“No, it’s not your fault.” I tried to stay calm but I was hysterical.
“Well, maybe now he realized what he can loose...” He said as he turned towards the car.