Chapter 3

The moment I entered the room I froze. I’ve seen people in hospitals before, I remember seeing my Grandma in the hospital, but this was far worse.
He was on the bed, a tube coming out from his mouth, connected to a machine. His head had a bandage around it, and his hair was obviously cut off. He had a bruise on his left eye.
The constant beep of the machine made me nervous. I also noticed the respiratory machine which he was plugged into.
I felt the tears roll down my face. His arm was covered in bandages and needles and IV's were stuck into his arm in random places. I took a seat next to the bed. He looked so fragile.
“Hey” I said, caressing his hand. I was afraid to hurt him
[i]'More than you already have? impossible![/i]
“I’m sorry.”
He was in deep sleep. I started to cry even harder.
“It’s all my fault” I kissed his hand softly. “I’m so sorry, I know that the best way of punishing me is dying, but you can’t die.”
“Oh, shit. Sorry.” I heard a female voice behind me.
I cleaned the tears fast. There was a kid on the doorway, she was dressed like a nurse, but was too younger for that.
“Sorry, Gee.” She put her hands on her mouth, as if she had just remembered shouldn't say anything.
“Do I know you?” I finished wiping off tears.
“No.” She entered the room.
“Are you a nurse?”
“No. I’m a volunteer here. I heard about Frankie and came...” she looked at Frank with a sad expression.
I got a little mad. Why was she calling him Frankie?
“I’m your biggest fan.” She putting her hands on her chest and gave a step closer.
[i]'These fans think that they own us/[/i]'
“Oh, great.” I said sarcastically.
She blushed a little.
“So… “ She started.
“Hey, I'm not sighing anything okay?”
I turned back to look at Frank and hold his hand again. She stood there for a minute.
“I’m praying for him you know. Everybody is.”
“Thanks” I feel a warm feeling inside, remembering why our fans are so great. I looked at her and saw that she was crying.
“Are you ok?”
She moved her head in a negative answer.
I don’t know what came to me, but I went to her and held her, she gasped immediately. But reached her arms around me and returned the hug after a moment. I felt the tears.
“Why him?” She was crying so hard.
“I don’t know...” I was crying too.
After a couple of minutes we both calmed down. So we sat and started to talk.
“I’m Dana by the way...” The girl was tiny and skinny, dark hair and piercing in her nose. She had an scorpion tattoo just like Frank on her neck.
“Gerard. But you probably know that already.” I said.
She giggled a little.
We talked for a while. She told me about how she was working there.
“My parents think that the 'DARKNESS' will go away if I see real pain.”
“But is a nice thing to do, helping people”
“Yeah, I suppose,”
“How old are you anyway?”
“ 15”
After a while she said goodbye and left.
I stay a little longer with Frank. I just held his hand. I wished every minute that he would awake and open his eyes. His parents arrived a little later so I left. I saw it was almost five AM. I needed coffee.
I went to the cafeteria, but they had run out of it.
“A big group of people came and drank it all...”
I didn’t have to image who it was.
“Even a skinny guy took two cups, he was so weird.”

I went out side the building and saw Lind-Z lying on Mikey’s car, smoking.
“What the hell are you doing?” I yelled at her as I approached.
When she saw me she looked terrified. She dropped the cigar and put it out with her foot. I rushed faster to her and grabbed her by the shoulders.
“Are you crazy? You’re going to kill the baby!”
“I’m sorry. It too much pressure.”
“Of course it is. Frank could die. And you don’t give a shit.”
She looked down.
“This is the reason the baby's not growing properly, isn’t? You’ve been smoking” I felt the despair growing.
“No..I,”
“That’s it!!! We are going inside, and finding someone to do a proper exam!”
“NO!” She panicked.
“Why not?”
“I don’t trust these people”
“Is a fucking hospital, they have doctor like in every other fucking hospital!” I grabbed her arm and try to pull her but she refuse.
“Please don’t.”
“Why? What’s wrong with you? You don’t care the heath of our baby?” I tried to pull her again. She separated herself from my grip and took a few steps away.
“You were going to leave me for him”
“What?” I didn’t understand what she was saying.
“I had to do it. I couldn’t lose you for a guy!”
“Lind-Z….what you have done?” I asked her slowly.
“There is no baby” She looked at the floor.
I was in shock.
“What…?” I managed to say.
“I’m sorry” She was crying. "I thought that I’ll get pregnant after that. But you keep thinking about that faggot, and didn’t touch me at all!”
I felt the blood rushing to my head. “He deserved it!”
That was it. I never thought I’d do it in my life. I hit her. I slammed her, in the face.
She was in shock. She grabbed her red check and looked at me in disbelief.
“You still want him...”
“I never stopped loving him. I don’t want to see you ever” I turned around and went inside the hospital.